I ain't long for this town...

"FOR SALE, by owner." And my life just got even more interesting. It's 2:30am and I don't feel like writing a book...there's too many things for me to say. Bottom line...my house is for sale. I SUSPECTED it was...or had been already...about 1:40pm, when I overheard the landlady outside talking to a neighbor, the neighbor saying things like "good luck." I mean, I was fairly certain what was going on. Let's backtrack 2, 3 weeks here...this is NOT a shock to me. On a few occasions, i've overheard from my nosy window perch very vague, intriguing things being said. Never "WE'RE MOVING." But things like "it's a 50/50 chance." Then there's the fire inspector coming, a new roof having been put on in October. Little clues along the way. On top of ALL of that...my good old intuition. I'm just a very aware person. I pick up on things...vibes, words, circumstances. For MONTHS, i've said to myself that the rent HAS to be going up soon. I just felt like something had to give. Then there's the little fact that I'VE been basically prepping to move, with all my cleaning and streamlining, since the fucking holidays. It's SO funny to me...all of this...it's just all too odd and bizarre and ironic. And PERFECT. Me...the guy having more and more panic attacks lately...how did I greet the potentially horrific news that I may be forced out of my apt, forced to pay higher rent, or forced to move back in with mom and dad for God knows how long? Well, I greeted it with GLEE. I am not remotely stressed by this. OK, now let's fast forward a tad to 9:15pm...when I finally left the house for the first time today. THERE it was...as I suspected...a FOR SALE sign on the front porch. Savvy, nosy observer that I am, I noted from my window a few people looking at SOMEthing in the front porch area. I HAD wondered if maybe they'd sell to their daughters...and if so, maybe the deal had been sealed already. But the sign tells me ALL I know for sure right now...that 1) the house is for sale, 2) by the owner, 3) as of today. When it will be sold, to who, what the outcome for me will be...totally up in the air. But you're damn sure I went straight to the local apt. listings online tonight to get a feel for what's out there. I DO NOT EVER want to move back with the 'rents...and will do anything to avoid that. However, it IS nice to know that I have them as a local back-up. Dipshit, meanwhile, would HAVE to find a place to live. Speaking of Dipshit, only at 1am did I broach the topic with him. He claims to have not seen the sign at 6ish, coming home from work...riiiiiiiiiiiight. He's either blind or stupid. Maybe both. So I took a lovely bike ride through town tonight, stopping on Blvd. East to stare at the city, going to both Pathmark and ShopRite. The bike REALLY came in handy. No hills!! But, like, I am SOOOOOOOOO relaxed and fine with this news. Am I in shock? Or nuts? Because I know, on paper, it is so not what I need right now. But maybe it is. I have said from January 1 that I was gonna change things this year, and I meant it. And getting the FUCK out of this apt and this town, and ridding myself of Dipshit...OH MY GOD, I am SO ready for all of that!! I have a fucking LOT going on...a lot of pressure and stress and things to change...but yet, i'm thrilled by it. So FUCK 6-6-06 devil bullshit...I think this was a GOOD day. I got a LOT done. And big change is afoot! Random...I read today that they're trying to make Peroni the "hot" new "upscale" beer. Oh?? Because I'VE loved Peroni for a while now...sits front and center in my wall of beer bottles. But I always DID have upscale tastes. Wow...it's very exciting thinking of where i'll land when this SALE is signed and complete. I'm gonna lay down and stare out my window now...while I can...