A grateful nation exhales (OK, just me) as a New (LIBRARY-FREE!) Day dawns...though I'm an idiot...

Was that the longest run-on title or what? Today's been joyous...odd...like Christ spoke to me and showed me The Light. Out of NOWHERE at about 12:20pm, it dawned on me that my archaic living room computer still WORKED...and I could simply revert to THAT one instead of waiting for The Magic Cord to be found for my laptop. It took me TWO AND A HALF MONTHS to realize this. I just can't explain my stupidity. I mean, I just had it in my mind that it was a "dial-up" computer only (I know, idiotic)...coupled with how ancient and bulky and desktop-y it was...and I just did not EVEN think to hook it up to the DSL line. What the FUCK is wrong with me?! Ultimately, what's saved me here TWICE since early summer is my 50-foot DSL cable. Isn't my life insanity? So, i'm DONE with the library!! I can't believe it. It was such a cast of characters...I'm pondering going back one last time just to wistfully stare at them all, playing sad music in my head, like it's a series finale. I actually very well may go back there...just not to go online. It's a beautiful library...an old mansion...and I DO so love the vast array of newspapers and magazines spread out before me. I've gotta be careful, though, NOT to become a slave to the internet now that I've got it at home again. It's indeed been liberating in a way. I'm optimistic, though...about everything. I'll get SO much more done, as I can CONCENTRATE now. And do things when I want...like now, at 12:30am. It's just unbelievably freeing. And in my zeal to CHANGE THINGS, I consulted with Dipshit tonight...the desk that the computer sits on will likely be tossed to the curb tomorrow night. It's falling apart, awkwardly big, and takes up needed space. You KNOW how I love to streamline, and am DESPERATE for whatever change I can get. I'll have to see tomorrow if I can manage with the bigass computer on the coffee table...or even just the floor. It belonged to a PREVIOUS Dipshit whose living here was seriously one of the WORST decisions I made in my life -- so I'd take immense glee in slamming this piece of Ikea shitwood to the sidewalk, imagining it's his hair-plugged head. Yes, sad as it may sound, this simple computer desk's removal would be yet another small step toward BIG CHANGE and doing things MY WAY. Damn...I can't get over it...I'm back online at home again! What, pray tell, will just pop into my creative mind TOMORROW to change my life for the better?! Goodbye, Library Freaks! Hello, (slightly) lower blood pressure!