My newest grim online hobby...

Viewing the state police's UNIDENTIFIED BODIES list. Go have fun yourself...http://www.state.nj.us/njsp/miss/ui_counties.html. I definitely have some bizarre attraction to seedy, desperately lonely areas of life...I'm not sure where the fuck I get this from...though I'm not so bad that i'm buying serial killer shit on Ebay. Though I AM fascinated how killers become such...in the sense that i'd LOVE to explore their childhood...were they evil then? But I digress. Now in my defense, I didn't wake up this weekend wondering where I could view summaries and sometimes photos of corpses. There was a front page story on it in the Hoboken Reporter...part of their "fun" 3-part Halloween-season series of "spooky" things. Note to the Reporter staff...this really isn't in the same league as rumored haunted houses. This is grim, depressing shit...and yet, there I went ripping out the website from the paper with an almost giddy attitude, anxious to get to a computer to access potential pictures of dead bodies. Yeah, I have a dark mind. But I know i'm not the only one. Besides, as the article pointed out, the hope was that people WOULD go to the website and maybe, JUST MAYBE, help identify at least ONE of these people. And there are MANY people unclaimed by another living soul. They sit in the morgue for a bit, then are buried. Can you fathom this? No, I can't, either. How can NO ONE come forward to report a loved one missing? There's a guy found in 1981 (!) who still hasn't been ID'd. My God, how sad is that? The whole exercise is about the most depressing thing I can imagine...and yet I keep clicking on case after case...admittedly hoping to see increasingly ghoulish images. And some of these pics are VERY disturbing. It's human nature, I think...the curiousity about death. Maybe I should've been a medical examiner? As I've said in many other grim situations, I actually take something positive from it...namely, that i'm alive. And that MANY people would care enough to report me missing. *A final odd note...a man found in North Bergen in 1989 had a left inguinal hernia. Yup, that's what I have. Shudder.