2:02am...my LAST NIGHT WITH DIPSHIT!!?!
I think i'm in shock. I still can't process it. I mean, I really don't even know what to write here...that's how BIG this is. All sorts of chaotic things are going on in my life; my sanity's on an hour-by-hour basis. Today was shockingly GOOD though, overall. I'm doing some major knocking on Irish wood.
I have two main mottos at this life juncture: 1) One sanity-testing issue at a time, Gary; 2) tune EVERYONE on earth out. People's "suggestions," tips, opinions...90% of it is just ulcer-inducing NOISE to me that I'VE ALREADY THOUGHT OF, THANK YOU. I'm not stupid, i'm not patient, and i'm extremely cognizant (endlessly so) that i'm just not quite made like many other humans I know. So my EPIC STRESS is just often made worse when people start chiming in. I'm one man, and there's only 24 hours in a day; i'm doing the best I can to sort through and execute the 487 ideas in my head, combined with the LOGISTICS and FINANCES involved. So if i'm doing something...or NOT doing something...there's a reason. Don't fucking question me. Yeah, i'm testy...it's how I get through the day with a smile on my face. :)
I'm not ungrateful, i'm not an asshole, i'm not unaware people are concerned. I just wish people would understand that I operate best ALONE. If I need help or someone to talk to, you'll hear from me. If not, just leave me be to enjoy the golden silence and collect my dizzying thoughts. Eh, maybe I'm being too harsh...to a great degree, it's also all about the APPROACH to talking to me. Jesus Christ, who gives a shit. Bottom line in layman's terms is that I have a lot on my mind, so i'm kinda all over the place. Actually, the REAL bottom line is that DIPSHIT'S MOVING OUT (!!!!!), and what SHOULD be one of the happiest times in my LIFE is -- typically, for me -- mixed with polar opposite feelings. But I'm ending this on an optimistic note, dammit...cheers to ME and cheers to March 2010! GOOD NIGHT, DIPSHIT!
I have two main mottos at this life juncture: 1) One sanity-testing issue at a time, Gary; 2) tune EVERYONE on earth out. People's "suggestions," tips, opinions...90% of it is just ulcer-inducing NOISE to me that I'VE ALREADY THOUGHT OF, THANK YOU. I'm not stupid, i'm not patient, and i'm extremely cognizant (endlessly so) that i'm just not quite made like many other humans I know. So my EPIC STRESS is just often made worse when people start chiming in. I'm one man, and there's only 24 hours in a day; i'm doing the best I can to sort through and execute the 487 ideas in my head, combined with the LOGISTICS and FINANCES involved. So if i'm doing something...or NOT doing something...there's a reason. Don't fucking question me. Yeah, i'm testy...it's how I get through the day with a smile on my face. :)
I'm not ungrateful, i'm not an asshole, i'm not unaware people are concerned. I just wish people would understand that I operate best ALONE. If I need help or someone to talk to, you'll hear from me. If not, just leave me be to enjoy the golden silence and collect my dizzying thoughts. Eh, maybe I'm being too harsh...to a great degree, it's also all about the APPROACH to talking to me. Jesus Christ, who gives a shit. Bottom line in layman's terms is that I have a lot on my mind, so i'm kinda all over the place. Actually, the REAL bottom line is that DIPSHIT'S MOVING OUT (!!!!!), and what SHOULD be one of the happiest times in my LIFE is -- typically, for me -- mixed with polar opposite feelings. But I'm ending this on an optimistic note, dammit...cheers to ME and cheers to March 2010! GOOD NIGHT, DIPSHIT!
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