4 months in...

The year's a 3rd over already. Sigh. So how's it going? Mine's been...wildly fluctuating. Pretty good. Some bad, but overall, pretty good. Chaotic, but (I tell myself) in that "yeah, but once things settle, things will be so much more clear" way. Or ZEN. Or whatever. May. Fucking MAY. What the hell? I mean, i'm glad...i'm sick of winter. But MAY? By the way, there was...seriously...4 FEET of snow in one town in South Dakota today. And a blizzard warning for NW Kansas. Are you FUCKING kidding me?! Not just flurries, or a light dusting (which, yes, can EVEN still happen in NYC at this time of year), but a MONSTER snowstorm...on May 2. Thank you, but I will NEVER live anywhere that can receive heavy snow in May. I'm here bitching about the fact that it's been 55 and rainy all week...i'm certainly not dealing with SNOW. I'm a fan of freak weather, but that's just too insane. This also proves my long-ago theory that you can't reliably travel by car cross-country until June. I still can't get over it...FOUR FEET of snow in one South Dakota town on the 2nd of May. So, yeah, my mind's chaotic right now...getting things done...and I know I am...yet (as usual) feeling like i'm not getting ENOUGH done. And so aware of the tick, tick of the clock. And ENDLESS examples of life's fragility giving me pause, inspiration, depression all at once. Not to mention an intense & somewhat ironic time-wasting need to scour the internet for information about certain said examples. It's super late so I'll stop now. Too much to say. Here's to May '08! Three weeks till Memorial Day Weekend!