OK, TODAY i'm having my BREAKDOWN!

Woke up about 7am (after goin to bed about 445am) with my head spinning. It was like one of those movie or TV scenes where there's 20 different voices and images yelling at a tormented person as he or she tugs at their hair, backs toward a cliff they'll fall off of, and says "no, noooo, NOOOOOOOO!!" It was horrible. I felt on the verge of a heart attack. Obviously, i'm still breathing. But this is serious shit. I'm sick of everything and stressed beyond human belief. I'm mercifully better now...5 hours and counting of being totally alone helps that way. Throw in a flickering candle and snow falling for added soothing benefits. Oh, look, JUST as I write that i'm alone, Dipshit returns. Fantastic. I am noooooow...INSTANTLY more stressed. Hello, insipid banter. Hello, endless myriad noises. Hello, glaring overhead lights. OH. MY. GOD. I WANT HIM OUT OF MY FUCKING LIFE. I CANNOT TOLERATE HIM MUCH LONGER. HIS EVERY MOVE AGITATES MY FRAGILE SANITY. OK, enough of him. I understand how people snap, though. I really do. I was very angry, moody, snappish before. In a haze. This week is pivotal. I'll either manage my super stress like never before...or wind up in a psych ward.